This weekend feels complicated for me. I’m thinking about the crucifixion of Jesus, and I’m wondering why we would celebrate the state murdering an innocent person. I’m wondering why we would laud a father who chose not to use his power to stop it and call him loving. I’m wondering why an all-powerful God would create a system where brutal violence is required for relationship. I’m thinking about how this ideology conditions us to normalize violence in our interpersonal relationships and in society at large. None of this is good to me.
This isn’t the first time I’ve had these questions. But, “God’s ways are not our ways and we can’t decide what’s good,” would ring in my mind as the spiritual band aid that could be used to dismiss any tough question without actually addressing it. This doesn’t work for me anymore. Dismissing my intuition has consistently led me to place myself in positions to be harmed. I’m practicing embracing my autonomy to make choices that bring me joy.
Today, I’m choosing to celebrate what is good to me. I have the freedom to reject oppressive theology. I can choose to believe in God without the baggage that has caused me harm. I can spend time with my loved ones. I have community that is wrestling with the same questions. I can glean from the wisdom of those who have gone before me and have provided insight on these questions. I can use critical thinking to see when doctrine is being used to manipulate or control me. I can deal with my emotions rather than dismissing them with a spiritual platitude.
I have hope that my faith is growing to place that will bring liberation and healing for myself and those around me. And that is what I call good.
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Wish there was a love button for this post! Love your transparency as you address the questions that don’t have simple answers.
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It’s the atonement theology that teaches a retributive view of God.
On Good Friday thru Easter Sunday I try to focus on a view of God that looks like Jesus.
God knew the world system and evil man would react to Jesus message in the way they did but Jesus came to show us the true heart of God anyway.
Yes, and even more than that. the atonement theory teaches that essentially, we are inherently terrible wretches. But I have trouble reconciling that with the idea that we are all made in the image of God. I spent Easter weekend on the beach and it was glorious!
Part of my rewiring and freedom would be getting so much better at seeing the endless “work ” people so for God (I was one of them)